Thursday, August 30, 2012

Wait on The Lord

Psa 27:14  Wait on the LORD. Be courageous, and he will strengthen your heart. Wait on the LORD!

I know I haven't wrote on this blog since my birthday. These last two months have been full of life, laughter and everyday mundane chores. I really couldn't think of anything remotely interesting to write about. Even talking to my friends in Florida lately, I truly have nothing to report. My garden turned out beautiful. I noticed when I mentioned my garden my friends seemed a little bored with the conversation.

I have been busy with children and young adults, some are incredibly sad and wishing to end their lives. I can not tell these stories without breaking the confidence of the children. So when I'm asked what have you been up to, the answer is always "nothing, just growing my garden." And n a way that's the truth. I see the children as God's flowers. The Apostle Paul said in 1Co 3:6  I planted the seed and Apollos watered it. But God is the one who made the seed grow. He was talking to the people in the Corinthian congregation about a division starting among the people. Through all the pain and heartache of the children; all I can do is plant the seed of God's love in prayer and the word. I have been blessed to watch the seeds of faith grow in their tender hearts.

I am starting a bible study soon. I'm just waiting on the LORD to send the people who are to help. I'm also working on getting an apartment. Pray that I get this apartment as I would truly like to give myself into prayer , fasting and study of the word. I do it now, but not nearly enough to feel confident to lead God's people. I have to hear from God. If I don't I refuse to get up and proclaim thus said the LORD! Lord knows there are enough people out there doing that. I personally am to afraid of God for that. plus I have no desire to bust hell wide open.

I want to hear God's heartbeat in every word that I speak. I know I do in the counseling. but preaching and teaching is a whole another matter. I know it's my calling, but that doesn't stop it from being scary. I told the Lord the other day that, pickings for preachers must be pretty slim for him to chose me. He told me to be silent before him and wait on him and he will give me revelation. Two days later and I still haven't heard from him. So I wait on the LORD.

Fearless