Sunday, January 25, 2009

Ode to the Demon Doubt

Hello Doubt, I'm glad you could come today. I have so much to say to you, I don't know where to start. So I'll start by thanking you for all the contributions you have made to my life. You have invested greatly in my security and have keep me comfortable and stuck in the same place for a long time. I do appreciate all your efforts. I can't count the number of times you stopped me from making a fool of myself and kept me quiet, and how many times you had me question if God really said that. I can not imagine where I would be if it weren't for you. You have constantly reminded me that I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough or good enough. I don't know what would have happened if you allowed me to think more of myself. And if your weren't there to remind me of all my failures I may have even tried again. You even stuck with me when Faith came, as much as you hate her. I know you two had different messages, but Faith's voice was kind, sweet and patient and you roared and yelled and made my heart beat loud and fast. I realize now it was only because you demand to be heard and your friends should never doubt..no pun intended. I sincerely thank you for being that voice of reason, you are so practical. You have kept me from venturing into the unknown and made sure I've stayed on the broad path. While Faith has been so uncertain and the path so narrow but alias dear companion I have chose to follow Faith. I would invite you to come along but you don't like any of my other traveling companions. We'll be traveling with Abba Father, Yeshua(Jesus), Holy Spirit, Love, Hope, Patience and several others I won't name since your face is turning so red.I know you only travel with Stress, Worry and Anxiety. Tell them I said "Bye," I need not be rude to them, since you always brought them along when I entertained you...I know you did not want them to abuse me the way they did.
I know what you're going to say, "What about what we had."
It's over...
There will be someone else, though I think you should retire. I know I must have wore you out with all my beggy prayers for Faith while at the same time entertaining you, Stress, Worry and Anxiety. Can't you see I was never meant for you. I will miss your strong arms of bondage, but stronger arms are waiting on me. He said say "Good-bye" and walk away and don't look back..
Good-Bye Doubt..take care of you.

Fearless

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is totally priceless. Reminds me much of C. S. Lewis' "The Screwtape Letters". Have you ever read it. Keep up the writing sister....it is a gift He wants you to share with everyone, so keep on keepin' on..Love Tovah

Joseph W. said...

I like it,

Joseph W. said...

Thank you.

Joseph W. said...

Excellent way to start a new year. There is much beauty in your writings.

Anonymous said...

Great writing! I agree with Tovah, it's very Lewisesque, but since you're my sissy, I'm totally gonna have to kick doubt's butt.

I love you.