Psalm 15
Living Bible (TLB)
15) Lord, who may go and find refuge and shelter in your tabernacle up on your holy hill?
2) Anyone who leads a blameless life and is truly sincere. 3) Anyone who refuses to slander others, does not listen to gossip, never harms his neighbor, 4) speaks out against sin, criticizes those committing it, commends the faithful followers of the Lord, keeps a promise even if it ruins him, 5) does not crush his debtors with high interest rates, and refuses to testify against the innocent despite the bribes offered him—such a man shall stand firm forever.
So much has been going on around me lately. I had started allowing to many into my inner circle. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with expanding your inner circle, the problem come with who you allow in. Being a Spirit filled Christian; your inner circle should be only Spirit lead Christians. I had start getting to close to a lot of the people that attend the ministry, where I'm usually a cross between saintly mother and stern school mum, I had become buddy and friend. The transition was difficult to say the least. I felt uncomfortable, during the Christmas Holiday they cursed, and swore more than Peter when denying Jesus.
They got drunk, repeated the same thing over and over all the while hitting and tapping on me to make sure I heard them. However, none of that bothered me as much as their gossip, it was malicious, cruel and disgusting. Before long I found myself joining in the conversation. I didn't gossip, but I did voice my opinion. In no time I quickly became one of them. I didn't start off to conform, I started off to transform. How quickly we can step out of the will of God. All we have to do give a place in our life to the devil. I got angry at the one who calls herself the devil's advocate and that's mostly who I discussed in a not so pleasant light. I fueled the fire for the slandering tongues, I used to give gentle rebukes and stern warnings, now I listened just so I could have a few cheerleaders against the one who was coming against me.
I ignored the check I got in my spirit when I started talking. The holy Spirit warned me. the only reason I was upset at the way she talked to me; was because of pride. I was told to forgive, because sin was lurking at the door of my heart. I ignored the warning. I talked. I complained, I made friends with nonbelievers and or babes in Christ. I sinned and when sin is accomplished it brings forth death. I felt a dark heaviness around me. My soul longed for God. Yet I felt far from him as if a cloud of darkness stood between us. It was an awful time. Then I cried out to Abba, first I asked him to grant me genuine repentance. I cried out for the blood of Jesus to cleanse me, I didn't stop until I felt the heavens open up.
I renewed my vows to Abba. I taught against gossip, slander and not covering offense with love. I apologized to everyone I defiled with my bitter words against my offender. I repented openly and honesty. I rebuked the gossip. Some got upset with me, but mostly my being willing to be transparent did something for all of us that night. I gave the Holy Spirit His rightful place. I read Psalm 15. I'm without excuse, Abba made it plain in his word who can stand firm forever. I want to be counted among that number.
fearless
Living Bible (TLB)
15) Lord, who may go and find refuge and shelter in your tabernacle up on your holy hill?
2) Anyone who leads a blameless life and is truly sincere. 3) Anyone who refuses to slander others, does not listen to gossip, never harms his neighbor, 4) speaks out against sin, criticizes those committing it, commends the faithful followers of the Lord, keeps a promise even if it ruins him, 5) does not crush his debtors with high interest rates, and refuses to testify against the innocent despite the bribes offered him—such a man shall stand firm forever.So much has been going on around me lately. I had started allowing to many into my inner circle. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with expanding your inner circle, the problem come with who you allow in. Being a Spirit filled Christian; your inner circle should be only Spirit lead Christians. I had start getting to close to a lot of the people that attend the ministry, where I'm usually a cross between saintly mother and stern school mum, I had become buddy and friend. The transition was difficult to say the least. I felt uncomfortable, during the Christmas Holiday they cursed, and swore more than Peter when denying Jesus.
They got drunk, repeated the same thing over and over all the while hitting and tapping on me to make sure I heard them. However, none of that bothered me as much as their gossip, it was malicious, cruel and disgusting. Before long I found myself joining in the conversation. I didn't gossip, but I did voice my opinion. In no time I quickly became one of them. I didn't start off to conform, I started off to transform. How quickly we can step out of the will of God. All we have to do give a place in our life to the devil. I got angry at the one who calls herself the devil's advocate and that's mostly who I discussed in a not so pleasant light. I fueled the fire for the slandering tongues, I used to give gentle rebukes and stern warnings, now I listened just so I could have a few cheerleaders against the one who was coming against me.
I ignored the check I got in my spirit when I started talking. The holy Spirit warned me. the only reason I was upset at the way she talked to me; was because of pride. I was told to forgive, because sin was lurking at the door of my heart. I ignored the warning. I talked. I complained, I made friends with nonbelievers and or babes in Christ. I sinned and when sin is accomplished it brings forth death. I felt a dark heaviness around me. My soul longed for God. Yet I felt far from him as if a cloud of darkness stood between us. It was an awful time. Then I cried out to Abba, first I asked him to grant me genuine repentance. I cried out for the blood of Jesus to cleanse me, I didn't stop until I felt the heavens open up.
I renewed my vows to Abba. I taught against gossip, slander and not covering offense with love. I apologized to everyone I defiled with my bitter words against my offender. I repented openly and honesty. I rebuked the gossip. Some got upset with me, but mostly my being willing to be transparent did something for all of us that night. I gave the Holy Spirit His rightful place. I read Psalm 15. I'm without excuse, Abba made it plain in his word who can stand firm forever. I want to be counted among that number.
fearless
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You will be just fine :)
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