All Things

1Cor 9:19  For though I am free from all, yet I have made myself servant to all, so that I might gain the more.
1Cor 9:20  And to the Jews I became as a Jew, so that I might gain the Jews. To those who are under the Law, I became as under the Law, so that I might gain those who are under the Law.
1Cor 9:21  To those who are outside Law, I became as outside Law (not being outside law to God, but under the Law to Christ), so that I might gain those who are outside Law.
1Cor 9:22  To the weak I became as the weak, so that I might gain the weak. I am made all things to all men, so that I might by all means save some.
1Co 9:23  And this I do for the sake of the gospel, so that I might be partaker of it with you.

The bible study is growing. It quickly went from twelve to sixteen even though a couple of people moved out the building. I have always been an introvert, shy, quiet and a loner. My sisters and brothers understand this about me. Not the people in the building. I had so many calls and knocks on my door today. It's not that I don't love them, I'm just not used so much company. I don't own a television or anything that could distract from my social awkwardness. I offer all I have, a snack, a cold drink and Jesus. Lots of Jesus.

I have somehow turned into a mediator, confidant, problem solver, the one who rebukes and chastises, a mother, an up-lifter, spiritual leader, and a friend of the sinner. It's happening so fast. Yet I realize it not I, but Christ that lives in me. I just wanted time alone with Jesus today. He wanted me too. He always wants me. He said, "Don't try to answer every call or you will get weary, teach them to depend on Me." It's Him they want. It's always Him we want, even when we don't know it. I'm not upset that they come to me looking for Him. I want to share Him. I want them to know the love that fills me to overflowing. I want them to taste an see. May be then they will understand my need to be alone with Him.

The come to me, the lame, elderly and mentally handicap, they come to me on oxygen or reeking of stale alcohol and cigarettes. I hug, I rebuke, I offer a cold drink, a snack, Jesus and love.

Fearless