Pro 22:10 Drive out a mocker, and conflict will leave. Quarreling and abuse will stop.
My biggest critic came back to the bible study. It has been so peaceful without her. Everyone shares and participates. To be honest it has been joyful, everyone has been so sweet and respectful to one another. The glory of the Lord has rested over us. Then the self proclaimed devil's advocate showed up after a month. I felt a heaviness over the meeting, the people that usually laugh and share the most were quiet or half sharing. I could tell they did feel safe enough to openly share their struggles. These are people who normally over share.
I have been really distracted, slack in prayer and study. In others words I have been the disciple without discipline. I have however master several games on Facebook. I have grieved the Holy Spirit, how I know is I feel it in my belly. I told Abba that I know he wants my time and attention, but I didn't feel like praying. Prayer seemed impossible or tedious to me. I sometimes wonder why it's not a puff of smoke were I used to be. His grace really is without merit, and His love is endless. He told me the more of my real self I give Him the more of Himself He will give me. I get afraid that He going to get me for sure for some o the things I've told Him. Those our the times he sets me free from my bondage to sin. He's faithfully even when I'm not. That makes me love Him even more.
Okay, back to the mocker, even though I have been totally out of order I didn't want anymore chaos or opposition in the bible study. So I was searching through YouTube one day and I see this scripture that I hadn't thought about in years, so I wanted to hear what the YouTuber had to say, well she spoke on casing out or not dealing with the mocker. However it wasn't for a bible study, it was just in general, mostly saying don't allow anyone to abuse you. I thought to myself, "Yeah, she has verbally abused me I can cast her out, because it's in the word of God". I called my mama so I could run it by her. She told me I can't do that. I had to sit on my hands so I wouldn't hang up on her. I'm a respectful daughter so I listened to her. I gave her my best argument of why I should, I quoted the scripture, but she refused to listen.
I prayed, I mean really prayed. I prayed because I needed to. I prayed because I had to, but finally as I prayed it turned into because I want to. I realized that there is another proverb that would best describe the self proclaimed devil's advocate in my life. Proverb 27:17 As iron sharpens iron so does one person sharpen another. I actually need her in the bible study mainly because without her I didn't give them my best. And worse then that, I didn't give Abba my best. I know my best is always found on my knees with tears and supplication.
I thought I had escaped any backlash from her between bible studies. HA! She got me after the resident council meeting. First she told me she didn't like the fact that everyone was talking in the bible study, especially since I have such a hard time explaining the scripture. I didn't let her know that I had gotten a few complaints against her. I just looked her in the eyes and said, you know God can heal you of your breathing problem. She looked shocked and I walked away wondering if I chose the right proverb.
Fearless
I have been really distracted, slack in prayer and study. In others words I have been the disciple without discipline. I have however master several games on Facebook. I have grieved the Holy Spirit, how I know is I feel it in my belly. I told Abba that I know he wants my time and attention, but I didn't feel like praying. Prayer seemed impossible or tedious to me. I sometimes wonder why it's not a puff of smoke were I used to be. His grace really is without merit, and His love is endless. He told me the more of my real self I give Him the more of Himself He will give me. I get afraid that He going to get me for sure for some o the things I've told Him. Those our the times he sets me free from my bondage to sin. He's faithfully even when I'm not. That makes me love Him even more.
Okay, back to the mocker, even though I have been totally out of order I didn't want anymore chaos or opposition in the bible study. So I was searching through YouTube one day and I see this scripture that I hadn't thought about in years, so I wanted to hear what the YouTuber had to say, well she spoke on casing out or not dealing with the mocker. However it wasn't for a bible study, it was just in general, mostly saying don't allow anyone to abuse you. I thought to myself, "Yeah, she has verbally abused me I can cast her out, because it's in the word of God". I called my mama so I could run it by her. She told me I can't do that. I had to sit on my hands so I wouldn't hang up on her. I'm a respectful daughter so I listened to her. I gave her my best argument of why I should, I quoted the scripture, but she refused to listen.
I prayed, I mean really prayed. I prayed because I needed to. I prayed because I had to, but finally as I prayed it turned into because I want to. I realized that there is another proverb that would best describe the self proclaimed devil's advocate in my life. Proverb 27:17 As iron sharpens iron so does one person sharpen another. I actually need her in the bible study mainly because without her I didn't give them my best. And worse then that, I didn't give Abba my best. I know my best is always found on my knees with tears and supplication.
I thought I had escaped any backlash from her between bible studies. HA! She got me after the resident council meeting. First she told me she didn't like the fact that everyone was talking in the bible study, especially since I have such a hard time explaining the scripture. I didn't let her know that I had gotten a few complaints against her. I just looked her in the eyes and said, you know God can heal you of your breathing problem. She looked shocked and I walked away wondering if I chose the right proverb.
Fearless
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hehehe :)
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